2005-01-18 @ 4:48 p.m.
blood test
Ok, I had my blood taken around 12:30 this afternoon. It was positive. I knew it would be since I don't think I've ever seen a positive home pregnancy test for myself. My first appointment is scheduled for February 16th in the morning. I'll be about 9 weeks. The woman I spoke to said I'd be due right around September 16th so I was pretty close!
I guess that means I should tell my parents before then. I don't know how I'm going to do it. Are there any other young mothers out there with some tips for me? My father is Catholic. My mom is too, but she only did it to marry my dad. Tom's father and step-mom are Catholic. His mom and step-dad are not religious, but they're likely to be upset for a few days. It's a totally different story when I think about my parents tho. Especially considering that we both live with them. I gotta tell them sometime. What better time than before they get receipts and bills from the doctor's office?!
It's still such a dream. Now I have to tell Susie earlier than I had wanted to. I leaked that I was leaving today and so I had to tell her why. She had the same reaction I thought she would. The reason I didn't tell her when I found out was because I didn't want her to feel bad. She has PCOD. The doctor basically told her that her body is like a middle aged woman's. If she wants to have kids she has to do it now because all the scar tissue will make it more complicated the longer she waits. She also had an abnormal pap smear and the doctor's office waited until a year later to let her know. Of course, she had been in and out of their office all year with phantom pain and cramping. It's still abnormal so tomorrow she goes in for an exam. They'll be looking for any irregular areas around her cervix. If they find anything they'll have to do a biopsy right there. So when I mentioned the blood test today, she said if I was pregnant she'd have to hurt someone and it was unfair. I don't blame her for feeling that way, but I wish she didn't. There's not much I can do to improve her situation. I'm living her dream and I'll only make her feel worse because of it. Hopefully she won't change her attitude at all because that would be hurting me.
I'm not sure what to do. I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel. Tom is acting weird in my opinion. He doesn't seem to be happy or upset. It bothers me because if I knew how he felt then maybe I would know how I feel. He seems a little distant. It's probably just me. I know he would never leave me though.
Anyway, I'll write again when I have something to say, which will probably be sometime soon. Ta!
