2005-03-24 @ 10:24 a.m.
finally!!
OMG!! I've been waiting two days to update!! Amazing.
I wanted to clarify my last entry. I really don't give a shit about my brother. In fact, I hate his guts and it goes beyond sibling rivalry. He's just plain mean. He's not even 16 yet, but he's 9 inches taller than me and almost 2 of me wide. And he's a jackass. The one and only reason I don't want to 'hurt' his reputation is because he would hold a grudge and it's just not something I want to deal with. He's an asshole enough already. Not to mention he has a golden rep: he's a jock, a lady's man, comedian.... Did I mention I hate him? Readers of my other diary have heard plenty on this subject. This entry may not be here when it comes time to share with my baby.
Anyway, the other reason I want to keep the baby secret is because it's my secret. I don't want to share this baby with a bunch of people that I also hate who I will never see again after June. My school is a horrible school. It has a reputation of having a lot of pregnant girls and I don't want to be a part of it. Almost all of these other girls were 'easy' and ended up in not desirable situations. I think there may be only 2 other girls that I have ever heard of who stayed with their boyfriends, maybe got married, and raised decent children. I have barely any close friends these days and I'm not going to hang out around people I barely know asking me stupid questions. How did you get pregnant? Do you have a boyfriend? Are you getting married? You have no idea how much that pisses me off. I cannot describe how much I would loathe that.
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Happy 12th Birthday to my youngest brother! Tom and I need to go birthday shopping for him today because my mom never really got around to it. I think she's going to surprise him with subs for dinner too. :-)
My cousin emailed me the other day and said that she wants to throw a baby shower for me with another cousin. I was like, "You do??" Haha. These are my 2 oldest cousins. I'm the third in line. They're planning it now, but it won't happen until the summer. I really need one tho. The last baby in the family was my youngest brother and I just told you he's 12 today. I'll have to get them a guest list for my few friends and Tom's side of the family...
I'm getting in the bathtub now. I'm tired of sitting around in a white shirt covered in spots of spaghetti sauce. :-p
