2005-04-07 @ 2:49 p.m.
"rumor"
So I told my friend Mo today. I've been dying to tell her, but I was too nervous. She asked me about it this morning cuz I guess she's heard it from a few other people. So we talked about it for most of study hall. She's excited, she's gonna be an aunt. LOL. Anyway, she heard from Jacquie and I am not about to tell her. She "warned" me about this rumor this morning in chorus. She told me who she heard it from and I said I would just have to tease that person. Jacquie is a pathological liar and no real friend of mine. Way back when, she used to be. Why would I tell her an intimate detail of my life if she's going around asking everyone but me if it's true? If she were really my friend, she would come to me. Like Mo did.
This is really frustrating me. I don't understand how this started or how it's getting around. The first person to mention anything to me was my chorus teacher. She said people were talking because I was gaining weight. Well, I've gained 8 pounds and you can't tell at all. I haven't even "popped" yet. The only ground this "rumor" stands on is that I've been wearing baggy, comfy clothes. I can still wear my old clothes (except my jeans), it's just that they're uncomfortable. Maybe a week of that would suppress everyone. I guess I really shouldn't care. I just really do not want to share my life with people I've hated for most of it. Why would I tell anyone I don't trust? I've always talked about leaving this school and this town. Mo agreed with me about keeping it a secret. They really won't be able to tell until June. And by then it will only be the smart people who notice. I will never admit it to anyone I don't trust. Which is almost everyone. I will lie my ass off just to keep my life private. Can you understand where I'm coming from?
Tom and I had a nice night last night. At about 7 I handed the remote over to my brother and his girlfriend and went to bug Tom. He got off the computer and we laid on his bed. We actually ended up falling asleep until 9. I have no idea how that happened, it's not something we do. So we had to eat a *microwaved* dinner and I had to get in the shower. Then we came back to his room and laid down again. He opened the window cuz it was hot. It smelled just like summer...mmm... I eventually went down to my bed where I slept very well. Tom isn't home right now, but I think I'll call him. :-)
Speaking of summer, it's actually raining now. It's very light. And you can smell spring/summer everywhere. I love it!
Have a nice night! Ta!
